Look Back.
Week three.
Monday to Friday. How it felt, what I said I’d do, what I did.
How’d I do?
I fell apart a bunch of times this week and basically had to right the ship a bunch of times which is fine that is what I do that is what all of this is even for but sometimes it is a lot and this week it was a lot. If I missed things I don’t doubt it I haven’t been to the gym including one time I got full on dressed to go and beefed it at the end went to Wawa instead.
The point of “this sort of Evolution” once I figure out a cooler name than Snap Evolution (War Footing too faux machismo) is to hold my shit in place specifically in moments like this where you don’t want to but you GOT to so move your feet forward. This be that.
So no data in front of me I’m happy I’m still standing here to talk to you, Coach.
Ha ha ha ha ha. Thanks I actually forgot about tomorrow and feel encouraged now to continue on the goal I set for myself tomorrow.
Pencils Down I knew I beefed. Splat cutely reminded me with his cute yawning each night.
Listen if this bullshit is just for ME we’ll have done something here I don’t give a FUCK.
The fact that I am pushing back against this exactly like a client would. I’m not super comfortable with the 5a Pencils Down but if that’s what my body is telling me let’s listen and build from there.
Monday to Friday.
Treadmill first, then the weights. Tuesday and Friday, out the door by 6:30.
Sunday, October 18: the long run.
No gym. One day dressed and out the door, then Wawa instead.
Walks on the watch: Wednesday 6:10am, Thursday 10:47am. Sunday’s run is tomorrow.
Pencils Down: 3:30am, a hard stop, until sunrise. From Tuesday night.
Kept none of four. Last message: 4:50, 5:37, 6:35, 5:52am.
The one night the watch scored: Tuesday’s, asleep 8:11am to 1:51pm. 5h 40m, a sleep score of 62, my best on record.
Wawa Wednesday: the weekly dissertation progress report.
Wednesday’s post went up on its day, as the company’s Look Back.
The progress report itself: last touched October 7.
Saturday and Sunday are planning days: the Look Back, then the Game Plan. They aren’t counted. Dotted: no rule yet.
Later each night, then Friday.
| Night | Last message | After 3:30 | Sunrise |
|---|---|---|---|
| Sunday | 4:43am | before the rule | 7:06am |
| Monday | 4:01am | before the rule | 7:08am |
| Tuesday | 4:50am | 3 messages | 7:09am |
| Wednesday | 5:37am | 9 messages | 7:10am |
| Thursday | 6:35am | 27 messages | 7:11am |
| Friday | 5:52am | 8 messages | 7:12am |
Last message = the last thing I typed to Claude Code before sunrise, timestamps only. Three weeks of nights: 16 of 21 were already done by 5:00am. So that’s the new line, from tonight.
Friday
We “push through” tonight for what to prove what to whom putting ourselves at how much risk? Take the time when you need it is the lesson here and you need it.Day 16 →
*Four nights under Pencils Down, none kept. The last message came later each night through Thursday, then earlier Friday. The one night the watch scored was the 4:50 stop, and it was the best sleep on the record. No lifts. Wednesday’s post went up on its day. Friday at 4:49pm: “I’m calling it.”
Three things on the screen.
- Sunday: the long run. Test the legs.Then the gym once this week. Out the door counts.
- Pencils Down at 5:00.Then nothing until sunrise. My body said so.
- The committee report, Monday the 19th.Then Wawa Wednesday, October 21.