Game Plan.
Week five.

Every week/Evolution of this challenge I have realized something new, from realizing it wasn’t about my birthday it was about a milestone, to realizing I was chasing/celebrating the wrong milestone.

This isn’t going towards five years sober or my 48th birthday this is self-celebration that I am still here and perhaps I shouldn’t be according to the data however here I am and look at all this sh*it I did while I was not dead.

I intend to spend the rest of this week up to and through my birthday Acting As If I am the person I have been building this whole ass time because if I’m not him I’m wearing his pants. What Comes Next?

Run

I haven’t done sh*it physical in weeks I don’t think except survive like an animal wandering out at twilight to avoid being seen by humans to scavenge food from Wawa. Goal for the week clean myself up it’s your birthday get your sh*it together stop living like a shut-in or atleast pretend for one week. One week.

Fuel

Up the protein start making shakes you have the fixins add it to the routine overcome your (I’m just being honest here) kitchen anxiety and get into some prep it’s about cost at this point there isn’t any money.

Getting on regular sleep will assist with this however I am not going to pretend that’s a possibility — I say getting back to a workout will bring the body back in line with requiring recovery to maybe Tuesday/Friday. What doy is this. I don’t know what day this is so call it Wawa Wednesday in the gym then pin a Friday/Sunday all three day time it gets dark too soon and you’re not walking around at night if you can help it.

Write

We’re about there on October deliverables I’m tracking toward Wawa Wednesday for that one as well earlier if possible but no later I want to give the committee time to say “NO ABSOLUTELY NOT” and Pivot if need be and still get another iteration in before Nov 19 if needed to make Nov 19 final thumbs up or down.

I think all of this sh*it should count towards write maybe Write becomes Build as my dissertation is WCN is my dissertation and back again.